After an evening of shopping, baseball, and memories with a best friend, I feel content. In the past week, I have laughed at goofy jokes, cried over Costa Rican reminiscence, smiled at strangers as if they were old acquaintances, and helped myself to a dose of silence with me. Now that I have the opportunity to drive myself in my car to wherever my heart desires, I tend to spend a lot of time driving and thinking at the same time--I know, I'm quite the multi-tasker.
I was thinking the other day...is it vanity to simply be completely content with yourself? I feel like society has pressured us (or at least my generation...or maybe just me...) to depend on other things--people, materials, ideas--for our own personal happiness. I don't know if I'm just on this self-fulfilled high or if I really am completely, 100% happy with myself--no attachments.
For example, I see young adult couples all around me who claim that they have found their happiness in their boyfriend/girlfriend or that they don't know what they would do without their partner. At this point in my life, I don't know what I would do WITH a significant other. In this very moment, I think I am so happy being this Brittney that I don't want to have to devote my time and energy specifically to one other person. Obviously, when I see a couple that is truly and obviously happy with each other or when I watch a sappy love story on tv, it makes me think about how great that feeling must be. However, shortly after, I remember the degree of work required of a relationship, and I decide that I would rather just stay in love with myself than find another right now.
Many young adults (especially the ladies) of my age group constantly tend to worry about what they look like, how others see them, and what they can do to attract attention from the opposite sex. When it comes to using this great amount of my energy on my appearance or how guys are looking at me, I don't care...! In this very moment, I think I would rather be single for life than spend all sorts of energy on making myself up everyday for fear of running into "the one" at walmart without a drop of foundation or the slightest run-through with the straightening iron. I want to stop feeling that expectation to look marvelous in every public moment and start feeling nothing but my own expectations.
I think that is where I am right now. I am living by my own expectations. I think this is helping me to love myself more and more. If I live by nothing but my own expectations, it is highly likely that those expectations will be fulfilled with just the right amount of challenge. Don't worry--I simply used the relationship example as just that--an example. At this stage in my young adult life, relationships seem to be the most prominent issue and therefore is the easiest thing to think to write about. There are plenty of other situations that just as equally explain my stance on this personal issue. If I am totally wrong, don't worry about it. Knowing me, my opinion could change tomorrow. I could decide tomorrow that I am very much against my own personality faults and that I need to change my life. However, for this very instant, I am in love with Brittney. Sorry. She's taken. Ha ha.
Thanks for tuning in....Until next time...
I was thinking the other day...is it vanity to simply be completely content with yourself? I feel like society has pressured us (or at least my generation...or maybe just me...) to depend on other things--people, materials, ideas--for our own personal happiness. I don't know if I'm just on this self-fulfilled high or if I really am completely, 100% happy with myself--no attachments.
For example, I see young adult couples all around me who claim that they have found their happiness in their boyfriend/girlfriend or that they don't know what they would do without their partner. At this point in my life, I don't know what I would do WITH a significant other. In this very moment, I think I am so happy being this Brittney that I don't want to have to devote my time and energy specifically to one other person. Obviously, when I see a couple that is truly and obviously happy with each other or when I watch a sappy love story on tv, it makes me think about how great that feeling must be. However, shortly after, I remember the degree of work required of a relationship, and I decide that I would rather just stay in love with myself than find another right now.
Many young adults (especially the ladies) of my age group constantly tend to worry about what they look like, how others see them, and what they can do to attract attention from the opposite sex. When it comes to using this great amount of my energy on my appearance or how guys are looking at me, I don't care...! In this very moment, I think I would rather be single for life than spend all sorts of energy on making myself up everyday for fear of running into "the one" at walmart without a drop of foundation or the slightest run-through with the straightening iron. I want to stop feeling that expectation to look marvelous in every public moment and start feeling nothing but my own expectations.
I think that is where I am right now. I am living by my own expectations. I think this is helping me to love myself more and more. If I live by nothing but my own expectations, it is highly likely that those expectations will be fulfilled with just the right amount of challenge. Don't worry--I simply used the relationship example as just that--an example. At this stage in my young adult life, relationships seem to be the most prominent issue and therefore is the easiest thing to think to write about. There are plenty of other situations that just as equally explain my stance on this personal issue. If I am totally wrong, don't worry about it. Knowing me, my opinion could change tomorrow. I could decide tomorrow that I am very much against my own personality faults and that I need to change my life. However, for this very instant, I am in love with Brittney. Sorry. She's taken. Ha ha.
Thanks for tuning in....Until next time...
2 comments:
Uhh, don't get so caught up in being Brittany and forget to put some oil in your car!
i'm glad that you are happy being yourself, but don't let your expectations of yourself be lowered because you don't want to be pressured by society. you can still look hot and steamy, have a boyfriend, and be content with life even though our silly society is pressuring you to do similar things. do things that you want to do obviously, but don't discard the norms because they are norms.
i love you and i know you will always be happy and that's what's important in life.
mua,
elena
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